I don’t know if any of my legions of readers read the comments or not. This particular blog is in response to some comments left yesterday by my big brother Josh. Catch up if you need to.
Ok, Josh has brought up a good point. Sort of good point. At least, an issue that seems to be there. In people’s minds.
When am I going to start dating? I mean really, the divorce has been final for almost a year. Final for a year, so that must mean he’s been gone for nearly two years. Time to get on with life, right? People ask. At first it was just people who are morons and have no idea how painful a divorce can be. But as the months passed it became actual intelligent people. People I trust. And respect. Lovingly, gently, they want to know, when am I going to start dating?
Well, I have many good answers to that. My kids have had enough upheaval in their lives. I don’t see the advantage of putting them through the emotional turmoil of wondering about the guy Mama’s out with. Especially for Tre, that would be very hard. And who says going on with life means snaggin’ me a man? My life is full. I have friends who mean the world to me. There’s this whole writing thing. And homeschooling (don’t give me grief, Josh). I have much meaningful stuff to do. Which leaves me happy. And busy. Did I mention busy?
Pretty good answers, no? Well, as Josh is probably itching to point out, they are all also a load of…less than truth. Not that they aren’t true. They are, but they sure aren’t the whole truth.

The whole truth is it’s awfully scary. I haven’t been on a first date in over a decade. I remember those days. They sucked. And it’s a whole lot safer here, sitting in a dark playroom in the glow of the monitor. I’ve had enough upheaval for…ever.
I am protecting myself with some very good objections.
So ok.
I talked to God about it. We’ve come to an agreement. For everyone who is wondering, this is the deal. If God sends me the guy, I’ll go out with him.

Now, for Josh, this isn’t a great answer. He claims not to believe in God. Much like he once claimed not to have any doubts about his faith. Sorry, Sha. Best I can do.